In Amber Clad

• Class, as normal
• Work, as normal
• Food, as normal
• Printed out notes for MGMT 351
• Got advised so that I can schedule next week
• Spent forever actually arranging my classes. I’m taking 18 hours next semester. -.-
• Tried to put a down-payment of my dorm for next semester, got sent across campus only to be informed that Housing neglected to tell me I needed to re-apply online instead of being able to pay, and wait for my RA to give us a form.
• Filled out the online re-application
• Tumblr for hours, as normal
• Tried to figure out a way to spend my current excess of money I’ve somehow obtained. I believe I’ll start with these:

• Asked her on a date
• She said yes
• Hours later, she tell me she’s been “kind of talking” with another guy [who is a complete tool]. Doesn’t think we should call it a “date,” even though her “talking” with this guy is “nothing serious”
• I admit to liking her a lot, and that I would rather it be a date because of this
• She says she doesn’t want anyone’s feelings hurt, or to be confused
• I explain the difference between talking, dating, and a date, and explain that I don’t want to be a pity date
• She acknowledges my point, and agrees to the date, stating it isn’t out of pity for me

And so I keep trying to make plans for this, but talking to her about it doesn’t really seem to elicit much of a response from her about it. It seems like she doesn’t really want to go [to me]. I’ve had anxiety building up over this since she told me she’d been talking to another guy, and now it just doesn’t feel the same at all anymore.

I want to call it off so that I don’t eventually get shot down, but I also don’t want to call it off because I want to fight for a chance, and prove that I can beat out some douchebag tool. I’m just confused, and stressed, and I can’t get this shit out of my head.

Haven’t felt that in a while.

Wonder if it’s obvious. >.>

I’m in a funk, and I don’t fucking like it.

But what does it matter? Nobody gives a shit anyway.

…Fuck you.

Not sure what to though. I’m just getting a bit tired of the one I have now.

Hm…we’ll see.